I have been struggling to write this post for quite some time because it’s gets real personal, real fast. I don’t want it to come off as negative, rather I want it to be empowering. It may rub some people the wrong way but I think it’s important to show all sides of oneself rather than the perfectness we try to emulate on social media. I may be a blogger or an influencer or whatever you want to call me, but I’m still a real person going through the same struggles everyone else does. And I truly believe that by sharing these struggles, we can help each other to get through them and form new relationships that may never have happened had we not put it all out on the table.
In early May 2017, I thought I had it all figured out – I was living in a perfect apartment in Gold Coast, walking to an amazing job, working out every day at the best gym, traveling all the time and making big plans for the future. One weekend and one action took that sense of security away, flipping my entire life upside down.
In early June 2017, I moved back in with my parents (side note, they are the best ever so this is nothing against them). As an independent woman, not living at home since I was in high school, this was a hit to my ego, and a hard one. I began commuting 4+ hours to and from the city every day for work, longing for the simplicity and part of my life that I would never have back.
As hours, then days, then weeks passed by, the sadness and frustration began to wear away and a new path began to pave itself, one that I probably wouldn’t have seen had this terrible turn of events not happened. Within one week, I got into the Lululemon Seawheeze Half Marathon (HUGE thanks to Maddie Johnson for reaching out at the exact time I needed it), bought myself a dog (ironically named LuLu Belle), and was offered a dream job in social media at RAM Racing – talk about all the major life events happening in a short timeframe. Emotion overload.
50 days later, I definitely still have my weak moments but I can confidently say I made the best decision for myself and am stronger for doing what my gut had been urging me to do for so long. The road to get here was not easy – there were many tears in the bathroom stall at work, many skipped workouts because I had lost my drive, $4500 worth of retail therapy (including a promise ring to myself that I will ALWAYS come first – yes I copied Adriana Lima, whatever), and a few doctor visits but I’m here and still trucking on with my army of support forever encouraging me (shout out to all of you, I can’t even put into words how thankful I am to have you in my life).
And that’s what I want to share with all of you. We are all going through our own personal struggles and big or small, they take a toll on our well-being. By sharing, we can empower each other to get through those bumps (or mountains) in this road of life and come out on the other end stronger than ever. Let’s be real with each other, let’s continue to share all of those amazing wins on social media but also share when we aren’t having the best day and need a little pick-me-up. This is what the social media world should be used for and I hope to begin to make that change by sharing this with you.
If you need someone to talk to, I’m here. If you need some advice, I have plenty and won’t bullshit you. If you want to hear more of my story, just ask – I am an open book and wear my heart on my sleeve.
Cheers to all the strong women (and men) out there helping to make this world a better place.
All my love,